I didnt speak for a week....

On September 12, 2010, I was in prayer asking for walls to come down and God quickened my spirit not to talk about the issues anymore! Of course, I would be the one to tell God that I didn't think that was possible for me....I felt overwhelmed buy them...so He said, not to talk at all- for a week! What! I should have kept my mouth closed! But I really was being honest with God; I wanted the walls to come crashing down. I believe that I heard from God, no matter what people think! By faith, I started my fast from talking..... It taught me a lot of good things and also showed me some bad things as well.

1. It taught me to be very cautious of what I said, everything I said I had to write down and it took forever! I didn't want to waste my time on idol Babel, it took to long to write!
2. It showed me how frustrated I get when I am unable to communicate. I would get so frustrated that I would cry. On the 4th day I had to start over cause I blew up! It seemed like people didn't think I wasn't important enough to take the time to communicate with me, at least a couple of people.
3. It taught me to be slow to speak, again, I had to write it down so I had time to think about what I was going to say and a lot of times I would erase it and say never mind.
4. It showed me how important it is to communicate and to communicate the right way!
5. It showed me how much people depended on me, (good and bad), I felt loved and also stuck...because I couldn't help them!
6. It also showed me how little people pay attention; some people didn't even realize I wasn't speaking....I guess it is no biggy but it could really affect some people if they aren't noticed. Some people noticed that don't even live in the same state as me, lol (Johnson). ....Crazy!
7. It taught me not to care what people thought of me....I felt people were going to think I was being to religious or to spiritual....who cares! There was a time though- that would have really bothered me. I really only care what God thinks!  YAAAA! I have been delivered!
8. I learned that talking could be a form of bondage. Not knowing when to speak or what to say can be destructive to our well being and the well being of others around us!
9. I heard from God easier,....because I was not talking, I was listening!
10. I learned Patience...because when I heard from God on what to do and what He wanted me to do, I still had to wait tell my fast was completed to move forward.
11. I learned that fires don't go out unless there is no more wood (words) or a whole bunch of water (Jesus); in my case... both had to take place!
12. I have learned who really cares.. what you have to say, and who is patient enough to deal with you under hard circumstances, cause they take the time to read your notes and wait for you to write them and it is very time consuming! The people that get irritated and the people that just realize they love you and want to be there for you.
13. I learned that my tone and my body language in some cases where just excuses that people used not to communicate or face problems.
14. When I was quite (the people that knew I wasn't able to talk) rose to the occasion. Normally they didn't give their input, but they showed their love by talking for me!
15. I noticed that a lot of times when I was writing something, people would assume half way through the statement what I was writing, 99% of the time, they were wrong on there assumptions. Blew my mind! We wander why there is so much miscommunication, we think we know what people are saying before they finish! Even when I wrote it in black and white it was assumed what I was writing. People would interrupt me writing!!!

I pray that everything I learned would be in my heart for the rest of my life...I don't want this to be something forgotten! I want to be slow to speak, I want my words to carry weight and I want to know what to say and what not to say and even better when to say it! I don't want to talk just because I have a mouth! I want to be a vessel that God can use to speak to the broken hearted and  the lost. I desire to bless people and God with my mouth and not curse them. My words can speak life or death and I don't want to be careless with it! Think before I speak and not in anger! Oh God... that my words would be acceptable and pleasing to You!

Proverbs 10:19 (NLT) Too much talk leads to sin.
Be sensible and keep your mouth shut.